ok, so I made it my 7 days with no purging, but then today I had 4 purge episodes and for some odd reason I do not care. I also took a dose of lax and then my normal diet and detox pills. WHY? I am just really sleepy and have been ALL day, too tired to workout. I just did my my normal 5 mile walk and that is all. I have not done anything else today, I am just blah. Why do I not care about purging. I am tired of having to coordinate when to take the pills, b/c I do not want to mix any together- plus I am on ADHD meds and I do not want the pills to interfere with that either. I am on the fence again about my problem, I do not think it is serious so I am not concerned anymore I guess that is why I let my guard down today. I think I am fine and I wish that voice in my head woudl stop saying I am not. It is like my head is trying to tell me I am sick but I am really not, if I was wouldn't I be in a hospital. So I need to just live and not worry about this ED anymore.
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