I'm so upset I wish I wasn't alive. Over the summer this kid that I used to be friends with found out that I'm bulimic. And I got in a fight with his girlfriend and he's really overprotective over her, so in her defense, he told EVERYONE about my eating disorder. And I would get text messages here and there from kids and they were immature comments about "toilets being my best friend" and such. So today I went back to school and at lunch EVERYONE stared at me. You know when you can just feel eyes staring at you? Well, that's how it felt. Only I had about 310 pairs on me. People tried to make it seemed like they were casually looking around, but I knew they were staring. My friends actually yelled at a few people who were whispering and pointing. My eyes started to water and my sister (who's a senior) walked past and saw that I was upset and took me outside with a few of her girl friends and sat in the grass with me. I thought her friends were bitches, because they're popular, but they're not. I guess she feels the same way about my friends. Anyway, I'm more pissed than upset. I'm not the type to care what people think or say, but I was pissed about that kid telling everyone as a way of revenge. how gay? mucho gay. I'm not going to let it get to me, because I know that'll only provoke it, but I seriously want to strangle that kid. I could go break his heart and tell him that his girlfriend cheated on him (which is why i was fighting with her, because since i was cheated on, i know how much it hurts. but he had to be a prick and be immature about it). whatever. i just got done working out, i'm taking a shower then smoking weed; i'm stressed.
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