I find myself trying to stay away from mirrors because I find myself obessing about my weight and seeing a fat person. I don't know if it was they call body dismorfic disorder or if I just have a thing with mirrors. I am trying to be happy with my new body but, I still see the old one. Seeing all these magazines with size 0 or 2 girls in it doesn't not help me either. I need help to stop this obessesing to become thinner. I am 5'9" so I am tall but, I still want to loose as much weight as possible. I think part of it was all the harrassment I got when I was heavy plus being in a mentally abusive relationship (my ex). My fiance's ex factors into as well. She was everything I want to be. She is blonde, size 2 but, she called me fat. He didn't love her and thought she was ugly on the outside and on the inside. He finds that if I loose more weight I will be too skinny and he will find me less attractive but, yet all his friends on his myspace are all thin blondes. I've throwen up my food to keep weight off, I've stopped eating at times. My mother when she was my age was aneriox. Can anyone help me with this?
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