Today is july 3. I have eaten a total of 4 strawberries today and then I took a diet pill. I feel happy because I havent eaten though I know its bad. I just have been so stressed and food adds to the stress if I eat. Anyone else feel like this? I dont want to eat today. Just for today. I just want a clean slate today. Today a girl said to me " omg your losing weight omg you look this big ( and made a small space with her fingers). It felt so goood. It feels so good for people to call me skinny or small or tiny. Even though I weigh 150 now. I want to weigh 120 at least. I am 5'3. I used to be 170! NEVER AGAIN. WTF was I thinking? I was a disgusting fat blob. It makes me feel good for people to notice though I know I am still fat just not AS fat. It drives me to keep going because I WILL be thin. I WILL be 120 lbs at least. I WILL be thin come the end of the summer.
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