
Eating Disorders Support Group
Eating disorders are marked by an obsessive need to control the intake and/or purging of food. This community is dedicated to those struggling on the road to recovery. Join to discuss your experience with others and find support. Get advice, ask questions, and meet others who are going through similar struggles.

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so i was just at dinner with my bf and some friends of his who i had never met. as it happens the wife just found out about hubbys affair about a min b4 we arrived and shes really skinny allready and sat at dinner picking at slices of tomatoes.... i didn't find out till after dinner that this was unusual for her but sitting across the table from it, trying my hardest to behave like a normal person in front of my fellas friends, not to mention the fact that i was actually hungry (which almost never happens) was such a huge trigger... i'm happy to say that i still ate a pretty ok amount. but it really upset me because i still find it really hard to get away from the way i see myself: as the girl with "the most self control" who can sit and stoically starve while others "indulge" i know this is really disordered thinking but its still so instinctive for me
it also made making normal conversation extremely hard because all i could think about was how little she was eating and how fat i felt and how ugly i was and wishing i was wearing something different and that i could run away....
it also made making normal conversation extremely hard because all i could think about was how little she was eating and how fat i felt and how ugly i was and wishing i was wearing something different and that i could run away....
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You do sound a bit disordered, but I'm sure I have a bit of disorder residue left. I mean, even though I am nearly rid of it, it seems like there are some grounded platforms that I can't get past.
Anyway, good luck. :)