Hello all. I have had an eating disorder since puberty. I am sure that is why my thinking about weight and size is so messed up. But when I look in the mirror and see myself, I feel like the fat is hiding me, and the "real me" is this skinny person on the inside. I've always felt like this. If you look at a model, actress, actor or any thin person, you can see the defined lines of their jaw, cheekbones, the actual shape of their body and not some squishy bumpy silouette. I have been trying to loose weight and do it in a healthy way. But I don't really think that the way I think is healthy. Does anyone else feel like this? Are other people that arn't skinny happy with having extra fat on their body? Or does everyone that is fatter than a model actual hate the way they look? I would really like to hear what other people think.
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