Eating Disorders Support Group
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Tomorow i see my couciller for the seccond time and im totally dreading it!..I feel like such a fat fake!! I really dont want to seem ungreatful though because there are other people in my school that could use the time with her, and i dont want to see her, not until im thin again :(
Its making me feel really suicidal that i cant see a way out. I just dont want to leave my house. The only reason i do everyday is because i get to walk alot :S I cant believe its got to this point !! :( How can i do this alone!! But how is it i cant bring myself to want the help before its to late ! :(
Its making me feel really suicidal that i cant see a way out. I just dont want to leave my house. The only reason i do everyday is because i get to walk alot :S I cant believe its got to this point !! :( How can i do this alone!! But how is it i cant bring myself to want the help before its to late ! :(
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Hang in there, make use of the appointment and keep it, remember she is there to help you and can prob tell you why you feel this way, i was so reluctant to seek help as i felt this was the only thing in my life that was mine and didnt want it to be taken away, but getting help was the best thing i ever did, i hope you decide to stick with it, it will be worth it
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Thank you, im just dead confused what to do at the minute. Just wish it was over!
Christine1976
You are right in thinking that it's not going to work unless you want it to. The fact that you know that there may come a point when it's too late...shows that you are being somewhat realistic about it. I am so thankful you are talking about your feelings. Keep the counseling appt. I have been in counseling for 5 years...more for depression than anything but I find I am at my worst when I don't go. I hated it at first...but then it became something I looked forward to. I really like my counselor and could be friends with her if she weren't my counselor. You HAVE to be comfortable with your therapist. If you aren't, you will never be completely open and you will find it really difficult to get better. It may take a little while for you to feel comfortable with someone but don't give up. I had a friend tell me once "the thing you don't want to do is probably the thing you need to do the most!" I always remember that whenever I don't want to do anything (ie: get out of bed, eat,etc). Stay stong and keep going forward. Hugs, Christine
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Go see your counselor. You deserve to get help like everybody else. Don't feel guilty about seeing her. If you suicidal thoughts you definitely need her. Stay safe.
LillyAudrey
Best of Luck :)
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Good luck today. xx
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i too always felt like i was wasting my counsellor's time because my problems weren't good enough/other people were worse off, but that's not true at all. you deserve to have attention paid to your problems, no matter how trivial you may think they are, because they're affecting your life and you don't deserve it. if you feel you need help then listen to yourself and get it for your own peace of mind.
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Thanks everyone for your support, sorry thisposts abit late my computer hasnt been working...thankyou all so much..my counciller wasnt able to see me last week, il b talking to her on monday though, if i can make it through the weekend *fingers crossed*
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I have been here before, a long long time ago and now I am back.Forgive me for not just saying what I want to say,even under a triple dose of antidepressants it is still raw and seeping and I am hesitant at revealing it as at least under the bandages around my heart I don,t have to look at how raw and wounded.My child was cleaved from my heart by his own actions. my child of ten,turning eleven...
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theatre and I are there already. I'm having a very berry tea with crackers, cheese and cherry tomatoes and she's having a joint with some beer and we're both on really comfy recliners on thick pile carpet. we need some help with the decor if anyone is around??
