yesterday my therapist told me that i'm losing weight and if i'm purging as much as i'm telling them i am, then i should be losing weight. so then i got mad that they were being hypocritical-- like on one side wanting me to go to inpatient, but then telling me that they're curious as to what else i'm doing that i'm not losing weight. so then all last night and today i was really depressed, actually i still am. cause if i'm not losing weight, i must be gaining it. so all day i told myself not to eat, and i didn't. and when i woke up, i didn't even want to get out of bed i was so depressed. and i cried in my bed for an hour or so because i was so upset about how fat i think i am. so now i'm mad at my therapist for saying that to me, because i feel like instead of trying to help me, they triggered me more. now i feel disgusting and gross, and it's all thanks to my therapists... aren't they just great?
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