my life is literaly 'going down the toilet'... at the moment there are only a few things i can control, not my dad bitchin bout my mom. not my mom bitchin bout my dad. not my brother's drug habits, my dads drinking habits, or my sisters judgements on me... not even my friends who have been ditching me lately. so i decide to control... or try to control the two things that i can. my physical pain (SI) and my eating habits. though the cutting's getting better (1 month 'clean') my weight watchings getting worse. and its because no ones there to help me through the tough times... god i just wish someone would notice my pain... my struggles... does anyone else feel like their eating habits are one of the few things they can control?
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