Well, one, in the future, remember not to use numbers and anything that may be triggering. Sorry, not to be a bitchy first poster, but...yeah.

Two: Take it slow. So a piece of bread is too much right now? Take it slow and have HALF a piece, then quickly busy yourself with something positive like reading, knitting, watching the telly (stay off the Food Network!), talking to a positive friend on the phone, etc. Even talking to us here at DS!

When you eat that half of a slice, and see that, poof!, you aren't fat, it may give you the courage to take a baby step forward (mind you, this might be days or weeks before you can do this): have the whole slice. And sit with it, doing positive activities to retrain your brain into a good stream of consciousness.

And the bread is just one example. If you wanna try it with another food that you're more comfortable, work with that. You can't make leaps and bounds when you're crippled.

If the piece of bread is too much, try something lighter, maybe a cracker with some jelly on it. That won't make you feel so full and once you are used to that increase a little. If you feel like purging leave the house immediately, so you don't even have a chance and have time to lose the urge.

im sorry that i put numbers and im sorry if i triggered anyone. when i posted this i was really upset and angey with myself. in the future i will keep in mind about triggers.

Don't worry about the calories, just try to eat healthy. Try an apple, with good fiber and only 50 calories if you feel you need to watch your calories. If you are talking about 70 being alot for the day?...our bodies base metabolic rate is at least 1000 calories or so.

kenykat is making good with the advice. What I've heard is that most metabolic resting rates burn more than 1000, as the World Health Organisation classifies eating less than 1200 calories a day for too long as starvation.