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spiralling out of control

deleted_user
deleted_user
Like a lot of Ed sufferers I'm not just trying to fight an eating disorder, I'm trying to fight pain aswell. My ED was partially the result of needing a control; I couldn't control the pain but could control what I was eating. (There's a lot more to it than that but thats a big part.)

I can see myself starting to spiral out of control, its happening very slowly but it is happening.
I'm scared and don't know where to start. I thought I could start to fight ed but as the pain's getting worse I need to get my control from somewhere and I'll get it from the eating even though I know I shouldn't.
KayBeth
KayBeth
What treatment are you having? You need to find new ways of coping with pain so you don't need Ed. Not that I've managed this and feel very much in a similar position but got to keep looking I know I'm very guilty of catostrophising.
deleted_user
deleted_user
Currently I'm not having any treatment for ED. I had outpatient/counselling in 2007 but it wasn't working or rather I din't want to get better so I stopped going. I have been trying to find the strength to go back and ask for help again.
I just don't have the energy to fight both. As you say I need answers about the pain,(which I thought I had but now I'm not convinced.)
KayBeth
KayBeth
Perhaps its time you gave treatment another go. Number of times i've given up but this time I'm determined to perservere. Remember it takes a long time to sort this out and ed is bound to try and convince you you don't need therapy.
deleted_user
deleted_user
Are you talking about physical or emotional pain? Whichever it is it brings out addictive behavior. So you need to see a therapist and nutritionist, even if your first treatment didn't work. Neither did mine and many others but it's not a reason to give up. If you have physical pain you should see a doctor and come up with some kind of pain management. Good luck.
deleted_user
deleted_user
I need the ed control. As I don't feel in control of much else.
It's physical pain that I can't control. I had neurosurgery 8 weeks ago to try and resolve it. Given how I feel now I'd say it hasn't worked (there was no guarantee that it would but I thought it was the answer I was looking for.)I need ed gone so I can use all my strength to fight pain.
Have to find a control from somewhere else.
Ask for help..........but what if I fail again, not sure I could cope with that.
deleted_user
deleted_user
You are fooling yourself if you think you got control because of ED. The truth is Ed controls you and destroys you. So you need to get help whether you are scared of failing or not. If you fail, you get up and try again and again, as many times as it takes. Giving up is not a choice
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