I don't know who I am anymore. It's like the control I feel I have is starting to take control over me. Im about 80% sure that there is something wrong with me.the other 20% is me thinking .. "its just a phase almost every girl has something they dont like about themselves." but if i really think about it and face the facts there is something there that isnt right. the thing is that i know to get myself help I should probably be 100% sure that i do have a problem, but im not. and im not sure if to get help or not because what if there isnt a problem? I skip breakfast. Just sit there at lunch laughing trying not to alarm my friends when i dont eat anything. during classes im trying to move around as much as i can without being noticed to burn calories. i do any sport i possibly can. and i run at home on top of that. I do 95 jumping jacks, 150 sit-ups, 5 minutes of leg workouts on each leg. i am a sprinter and i really push myself. i have at least one meal a day or just water. i just feel im losing myself because it happens everyday.
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