Its starting again. I can feel it. I am starting to be grossed out by myself again and I am b/ping way more now and just freaking out but I HAVE to be skinny to look good in this dress that I have to where for this show I am in. I am going to bein front of hundreds of people you know? I went in the costume shop to try it on and the costume lady looked at my belly and said "let me look for something to tuck you in" and comes back with this hiphugger corsety thing. It made me so sick to see my belly sticking out of the dress and how gross I looked.I am 135 and 5'3. I want to be 115 by the show which is in 4 weeks.That means I have to lose 20lbs. If I don't my mom will make fun of me and my goal is to not have to wear the corsety thing. I am just stressing so bad over school and everything and I am just a mess.
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