i tryrd a new thing today (tonight here) at tea time instead of saying to myself i have to eat or else then having ED start up then start going aroud and around in circle in my head and not ead up eatting at all, today i said now net i give you permission to eat you are allowed food you can enjoy this. Then when ED started up i said to myself no you are beutiful the way you are you need this and you are allowed to it will do you good not make you fat wow i never knew i had such power i won and managed to eat a normal me wow this is fantastic i can bet the voices of ana :) now i just have to take it one meal on thought at a time. To top it off i see my srink tomorro and i can tell her. i am so happy with myself. Now all i have to do it bet the voices telling me to purge (but that's easy go to sleep he he he sleeping pills are my firend) I CAN'T BELIVE IT I CAN WIN.
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