Eating Disorders Support Group
Eating disorders are marked by an obsessive need to control the intake and/or purging of food. This community is dedicated to those struggling on the road to recovery. Join to discuss your experience with others and find support. Get advice, ask questions, and meet others who are going through similar struggles.
im really scared right now. ive started throwing up again. i was so good for so long, but i threw up after drinking one night and just didnt stop. it felt so good to just get it out of me, to not feel it in my stomach anymore. when i dont eat i constantly think about food, torture myself with the throughts of what i would eat if i let myself. when i b&p i eat whatever i want, and as much as i want, because i kno i am just going to throw it up in a min anyway, and i dont feel hungry after. the thing is i am trying so hard right now not to go into the bathroom and shove my finger down my throught for the 3rd time today. my roommates are home and im sure they would hear me. im not sure what they would say if they knew, and i dont want to find out. ive been so depressed for so long and i cant even tell someone. i envision myself tumbling over the bannister, or jumping in front of a car, cutting an artery shaving, steeling my roommates curling iron and doing damage to my thighs again. i dont want to start those things again. it was so hard to get out last time, and i dont know if i have the strength to do it again. i dont want to climb out of this hole, i just want to stay here and sleep away forever.
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I know exactly how you feel. I too have just recently relapsed. Don't worry about what your roommates say, you need to tell them. I think telling someone might make you feel better, and you may have less of an urge to do the bad thing as we call it at my house.
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Same here. I wasn't going to join this group because I thought I was ok and maybe it would trigger something? Apparently I didn't need a trigger. I feel horrible right now.
EmmaammE
hey keep your chin up we can get through this together. i woke up this morning feeling like that and just wanting to sleep life away. ive only just got up and it gone mid day! maybe its a good thing your house mates are home use them as a distraction but going and sitting with them
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theatre and I are there already. I'm having a very berry tea with crackers, cheese and cherry tomatoes and she's having a joint with some beer and we're both on really comfy recliners on thick pile carpet. we need some help with the decor if anyone is around??
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I'm trying to exercise daily. I was doing fairly well until I sprained my ankle 2 weeks ago but now I'm getting back on the horse. Today I walked over a mile with my arm weights that are about 22lbs total. I was out of shape and it was hard on my arms. I also did my 30 situps. I'm also going to drink a lot of water and try to eat healthy. I do tend to have a sweet tooth but I'm cutting...
