Eating Disorders Support Group
Eating disorders are marked by an obsessive need to control the intake and/or purging of food. This community is dedicated to those struggling on the road to recovery. Join to discuss your experience with others and find support. Get advice, ask questions, and meet others who are going through similar struggles.
people know that feeling...that thers gotta be more to life than this!
I hit the lowest of the low today.. So, i get home from jogging and have a craving for binging. Theres no food in the house and my parents are in too, im desperate. So i catch a bus into town just to buy binge food. I then catch another bus back home and find out ive left my house key on the counter (my money was stuck in my pocket so i emptied everything out onto the counter). Well, i can't ring the doorbell because parents will ask me where my key is, also noticing the food in my hands. So, i catch a bus back into town, get back my key and another bus back home. How sad is this! i have to take out kitcats outa one of them big packs, individually stuf them in my pockets along with other food i got in big packets. Someone was in the kitchen as i let myself in so i subtly but quickly run to hide a bag of buttons into a BOOT!! yes, a boot! disgusting!..afta eating the lot in my room (including the buttons) my mum offers me some chocolate rasions, i could have been sick there and then. I had to wait a full 30 mins until they went out so i could purge up as much as possible. This has by far been the worst day of my life. And now i cant helpfeeling i need to starve until im thin again..im ashamed of myself and deserve to have others be too.
The real question here is, is all the secracy, all the shame, worth it. Is a binge/purge really worth it. Laying awake at night, wondering if food will come up out of the shower as it has done before, every time your mum or dad shouts you, thinking that theyve discovered somthing. Im losing it big time! :(
I hit the lowest of the low today.. So, i get home from jogging and have a craving for binging. Theres no food in the house and my parents are in too, im desperate. So i catch a bus into town just to buy binge food. I then catch another bus back home and find out ive left my house key on the counter (my money was stuck in my pocket so i emptied everything out onto the counter). Well, i can't ring the doorbell because parents will ask me where my key is, also noticing the food in my hands. So, i catch a bus back into town, get back my key and another bus back home. How sad is this! i have to take out kitcats outa one of them big packs, individually stuf them in my pockets along with other food i got in big packets. Someone was in the kitchen as i let myself in so i subtly but quickly run to hide a bag of buttons into a BOOT!! yes, a boot! disgusting!..afta eating the lot in my room (including the buttons) my mum offers me some chocolate rasions, i could have been sick there and then. I had to wait a full 30 mins until they went out so i could purge up as much as possible. This has by far been the worst day of my life. And now i cant helpfeeling i need to starve until im thin again..im ashamed of myself and deserve to have others be too.
The real question here is, is all the secracy, all the shame, worth it. Is a binge/purge really worth it. Laying awake at night, wondering if food will come up out of the shower as it has done before, every time your mum or dad shouts you, thinking that theyve discovered somthing. Im losing it big time! :(
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theatre and I are there already. I'm having a very berry tea with crackers, cheese and cherry tomatoes and she's having a joint with some beer and we're both on really comfy recliners on thick pile carpet. we need some help with the decor if anyone is around??
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I'm trying to exercise daily. I was doing fairly well until I sprained my ankle 2 weeks ago but now I'm getting back on the horse. Today I walked over a mile with my arm weights that are about 22lbs total. I was out of shape and it was hard on my arms. I also did my 30 situps. I'm also going to drink a lot of water and try to eat healthy. I do tend to have a sweet tooth but I'm cutting...
Don't think of it as 'I'm going to talk about my ed to some stranger.' Think of it as 'I'm just going to open this door and go in and sit down.' Take it one step at a time. And then once you've started talking to someone, it will hopefully start to get easier to confide in them. Really really good luck for monday.