I'm slipping and it frustrates me because I've done so well for so long and now I feel like ED is back and he's screaming at me ALL THE TIME!! It's that constant battle in my head, and I hate it. 7 years ago on Feb. 19th I was raped, and this month is always hard for me but I thought it was supposed to get better. Now, I find it's not getting any better but in fact, getting worse and ED is taking over. I feel better when all I have to think about is ED- he lets me forget my problems, but at what expense? I have a heart condition, and they told me my next slip could be my last. Shouldn't that scare me enough to pull myself out of this? I'm just so frustrated.
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