you're not alone. tell someone else if you can muster up the courage...it's incredibly hard, but in order to get better, you have to have people who know and will hold you accountable.

-Debbie

find someone that will go that you trust. I'm very proud of you for even getting this far into treatment! Chances are even if your mom does find out she will be OK with this because you want to get better. I know this is hard but you deserve to go and get well!

thanks very much 4 all your comments they mean a lot i just dont no what 2 do my best friend nose but i am scared that if i tell her the hole story that she will wont to be like me and that she will start not eating 4 days

you can't think that way but if it does happen be there for her and tell her this isn't something to play around with! I'd say if you trust her and want her to go with her then ask but maybe also ask her how she feels about it too, that way if it is triggering for her you will know instead of her saying sure and you thinking everything is great.

Not to be the obnoxious poster that I am, but I think you need to get better on your own time. Your boss wants you to get better, great. But you're not going to get better if you don't want it for yourself, and it's clearly obvious that you don't. So she'll tell your mom- okay, and then what? Your mom will be in the know. Fantastic. My parents have known about my ED since I was 15, and despite their tries to cease it, I always seemed to find away to restrict, binge, or purge.

Point being: YOU have to be ready, not your boss or your mom or Santa Clause or the Easter Bunny. YOU. So, either you take the leap of faith and drive yourself to the hospital, or you tell your boss/mom/whoever else to take a hike. Your decision. You're a big girl; now wear the pull-ups to prove it.

hi thanks every 1 for your comment iv asked a friend 2 come along with me she seems to be realy help full and she said when se was younger she had the same problem so i hope seeing her gett better and go on 2 have children of her own will help 2 to fight this a win ill tell u all how i did because its 2morrow mornin am goin

Good for you. Rock it while you got it, and keep on riding. You can jump hurdles with your horses, so you can kick down the obstacles you face with your ED.

Your friend may have suffered from an ED, but remember treatment is about you, for you, and revolves around YOUUUU. What she has done doesn't dictate what you should do- recovery has to be made on your own time. It might take a few months, maybe a year, maybe several years. BUT, recovery is recovery.