I am at a point of actual fear of my ED right now. I feel like I am completely consumed by it and I dont know what to do....I was recently put on topamax to help with the binge/purge cycle and i realized that it helped supress my appetite to a point where i dont want to eat at all and my ED has loved that...well the past few weeks I have been going on eating possibly once a day and feeling extremely guilty now if i do and purging...and now i feel my appetite needs to be suppressed even more and my psychiatrist wont up my medication more so i took upon myself to up the dose so the past few days I have doubled my dose of the topamax...I dont know what to do...am I out of control or am I making to big of a deal out of this? Alot of issues have come up in therapy lately and that might be what is triggering all of this but one thing that is making me happy in all of it is I know I am dropping weight very quickly and therefore I am not wanting to go to any of my appointments with my treatment team because I dont want them to catch on but on the flip side I am scared because my ED has not ever been this strong and it scares me...I dont know what to do...please help....
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