hi, everyone, i feel i need a place to vent, so i joined this site bout 10 mins ago. i'm a 20 year old single mom. i started taking diet pills and over excercising at age 10. by 12, i was bulimic, by 15 i was anorexic. i had a minor heart attack when i was 15. by the mircle of god, when i was 16, after not having a period for over 2 years, i became pregnant and carried a full-term, beautiful, smart 9 lb. little boy. he wasn't even a month old and i had already started purging again. he is 4 now, and for the last 4 years i have been ok, i have had (eating) problems here and there, but nothing major. bout a month ago, i started dieting again, i've lost 12 lbs. everyone says i look great, to stop now, but i just can't. its all i think bout, my life revolves around it, and i hate it. my son has caught me purging before, and tells me i need to go to the doctor if i have a tummy ache. it breaks my heart every time. i want more kids but i know with what my body has been through that it will be hard. i'm also so terrified that if i have a girl, and not ever fully recover, that i will have a daughter with an eating disorder one day, because of stuff her mommy has done. i know i probably sound nuts right now, but this stuff is just tearing me apart inside. if anyone has any words of wisdom, please let me know, thanx for reading this.