Now I know I'm not crazy cos the scales say I'm underweight(won't say weight cos don't want to trigger)but when I look in the mirror I look fat! Now I know I'm not big but I just obsess about the fat bits even though i have horrible looking bones sticking out. Also now I have started to look uglier which sounds so stupid cos I've been asked to do modelling several times but I just don't see it. Everytime someone gives me a compliment I think they are making fun of me, and when people moan to me about my weight I get so angry and explode. Have started staying up til 4am locking myself in the bathroom listening to music just so I can sleep and clear my mind of all this stuff. Things in my past have started to really haunt me and I just need to get me back again. I am doing stuff totally out of character, I don't feel like me anymore.
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