I know exactly what your going through. I hid my ED for 11 years. I was terrified to tell anyone, but If I had of known about the support and help they were willing to offer me, I would have told everyone sooner. now that my family/friends/boyfriend all know, I'm not alone. Don't get me wrong, sometimes it's frustrating because they may not know what to say, or they will get upset with you, because theres no way they could ever fully understand. But let me tell you....just to have them there to talk to and to cry on is amazing...and I regret I didn't do it sooner. Good luck with whatever you decide:)

I HAVE STRUGGLED WITH MY ED FOR 10 YEARS OR MORE. IT HAS BEEN VERY TUFF! HOWEVER WHAT MAKES IT A LITTLE EASIER IS HAVING TRUE SUPPORT! PEOPLE WHO REALLY CARE AND WANT TO HELP AND BE THERE FOR YOU. I HAVE THE MOST AMAZING SUPPORT SYSTEM! MY ADOPTED MOTHER, MY ADOPTED AUNTIE, MY GOD-MOTHER, AND MY THERAPIST. THEY DON'T ALWAYS KNOW WHAT TO SAY OR FULLY UNDERSTAND, BUT I KNOW THEY ARE THERE FOR ME. THEY ATTEND MY THERAPY SESSIONS WITH ME SO THEY MAY KNOW HOW TO HANDLE CERTAIN SITUATIONS. THEY ARE SIMPLY THE BEST!!! I ENCOURAGE YOU TO FIND SOMEONE WHO REALLY CARES AND WILL BE THERE FOR YOU. YOU NEED SOMEONE TO BE ABLE TO VENT AND SHARE WITHOUT JUDGEMENT!!! IT DOESN'T FIX THE PROBLEM BUT IT SURE DOES MAKE THE PROBLEM A LITTLE EASIER WHEN YOU CAN SHARE WITH SOMEONE WHO CARES!!!

i completely understand how you are feeling.. i have only been suffering for about three years now, but the physical effects that ED causes are awful. do you have anybody in your life that you truly feel like you can trust? for me, it was my sister and most of my best friends. sometimes the things they have to say will anger you, but they are doing it a. because they LOVE you and b. because they dont know how to help you.. ED will impact your life forever, and even with treatment i was told that i will probably suffer for the entirety of my life.. but i keep looking for the future. i want to be a mother, and when malnuturished the first thing to go are your reproductive organs.. at the hospital i went to they made us write down the reasons for keeping the eating disorder (all marked in RED) and reasons for recovery (all marked in PURPLE.) it may sound so simple, but it really helped me.. another thing that helped is thinking of your body as a small child and your mind as its mother.. would you deprive a small child of the food that it needs to survive?