I just spent over an hour throwing up blood. My whole body is shaking. . this is the third time this week. I know I have another hole in my esophagus, because this is exactly how it was the last two times. But my mom is completely NOT understanding. This is the first time it's happened while I was living at home, so she's "forbidden" me from going to the hospital. I have to wait til morning to go to a doctor, but I have a final tomorrow. This is all stressing me out. . . I'm ready for my final, but I can hardly even get out of bed right now. . . I've resorted to throwing up in a bowl so I don't have to get up. I'm just upset and I didn't have anyone to talk to, so I thought it'd be nice just to get my thoughts out somehow. . thanks :)
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