hi everyone, i'm brand new here but i'm having a really tough time and could use some advice..I've been recovering from anorexia for about 2 years now and for the longest time my weight was stable and "safe." My eating was great, I didn't worry about eating too much or gaining weight or any of that..I was free from my anorexic behaviors and from the mindset as well (for the most part.) However, over the past year I've put on some 5 pounds and I feel AWFUL about it....I just want to get back to my previous weight, however I feel like starting to restrict at this point would most likely lead to a full on relapse.. I'm at a healthy weight right now, and where I want to be (5 pounds less) is healthy as well..So I tell myself that I'd be able to stop at 5 pounds and go back to eating healthy again..but I sort of doubt that as already my fear of food has started up again.. What do i do? I really feel like I NEED to lose this weight, but at the same time I'm afraid of relapsing...I never want to go back to where I was before I began recovery..I'm sorry this was so lengthy, thank you if you made it all the way through that :)
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