I am new to this site but I am certainly not new to the world of eating disorders - I have been struggling with EDs and depression for the past 7 years. I was diagnosed with Anorexia at age 12 and treated in both inpatient and outpatient facilities. I managed to get back up to a healthy weight, but all of the underlying problems still persisted. Now, after 6 subpar therapists, 5 failed anit-depressents, and at least 3 relapses, I'm not much better off than I was when I was 12. I can feel myself quickly backsliding deeper and deeper into the throes of bulimia and severe depression. Once again, it has begun to interfere with my daily life and social interactions. It's going to take every fiber of my being to avoid the temptation of surrendering once more to this illness. Even as I write, I can feel the part of me that wants so badly just to give in, to give up. And yet, the wiser part of me knows that if I let this go on for much longer, it will likely become very bad. I know that I can't possibly make my family go through another hospitalization, nor can my body take much more abuse, but I almost feel too tired to fight - I've been fighting for 7 years already. I guess I'm just wondering if there's anyone on here who can tell me whether or not recovery is a real possibility, whether or not this ever gets better. Do people ever really recover from eating disorders, or does the problem simply manifest itself in different forms, creating a continual struggle, an endless cycle?
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