Just need some encouragement right now. I am really struggling. I've been really sick with a bowel disease and fighting my ed at the same time. I have binge eating disorder and used to be anorexic years ago. My story is complicated but lately I really feel like im loosing all hope of ever getting well. I have no money at all and had to stop going to therapy, which im really upset about cause it was helping me cope. I can't afford a treatment center so I am trying to get well some other way. This is so very very hard. I think I might need surgery on my esophagus. My poor esophagus is burned and I am in constant pain. No I dont throw up....i have a motility disorder in my esophagus from nerve damage due to anorexia years ago. I'm such a mess right now. I'm holding on by a small thread and feel like falling off - I dont know how much more of this I can take really. Just needed to write here Im just really depressed.
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