I am 33 years old, a successful ophthalmic medical technologist, mother of 3 great teenagers, (my middle boy has aspergers) ... I should be soooo happy- did I mention I have been purging everything I eat for about 8 years now? It is to the point that I can not eat anything, at my lowest point I threw up water.. water! I kep telling myself I do it because I want to, because I love food, because, because.. truthfully.. because I cant stop. I realize now I can not stop myself. I dont know what to do. I want to talk to others like me.. who have made this a way of life...Who dont eat anywhere there isnt a bathroom.. or at other peoples houses, who dont even need to stick their finger down their throat anymore because they have perfected that skill. I feel so alone.
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