Eating Disorders Support Group
Eating disorders are marked by an obsessive need to control the intake and/or purging of food. This community is dedicated to those struggling on the road to recovery. Join to discuss your experience with others and find support. Get advice, ask questions, and meet others who are going through similar struggles.
I am hungry - at least that is what my brain is telling me.
But I am not. I have had dinner, and loads of crsips and a lolly and some peanuts, I am NOT hungry.
Why do I want to go and demolish the cupboard? Why do I have this urge to eat every bag of crisps I can find? Why can I not stop when I start.
I feel so stupid that I can't control it - or that I'm giving in and I should be able to control it. I think maybe i should just go to bed.
I am feeling worse and worse every second.
I can physically feel my body sagging in the chair with the weight of crappyness that seems to have just landed on me from nowhere.
I just don't get it.
But I am not. I have had dinner, and loads of crsips and a lolly and some peanuts, I am NOT hungry.
Why do I want to go and demolish the cupboard? Why do I have this urge to eat every bag of crisps I can find? Why can I not stop when I start.
I feel so stupid that I can't control it - or that I'm giving in and I should be able to control it. I think maybe i should just go to bed.
I am feeling worse and worse every second.
I can physically feel my body sagging in the chair with the weight of crappyness that seems to have just landed on me from nowhere.
I just don't get it.
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i just binged feel shit dont do it save yourself
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Whens the last time you had a binge? I know my brain andd body get trained to think binging is normal, when I've been doing it recently...could that be part of your problem?
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It breaks my heart reading your post. I have been there and I have thought exactly that but never before I've started actually binging. Be prouf of yourself that you possess that self awareness. Normally I go in to a mad trance where my desperation for food blocks out any kind of rational thinking. If you can catch yourself thinking irrational thoughts about food before you do it then you are on your way to being more self aware and every little step helps. Don't be too hard on yourself if you do binge...its a vicious circle.
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Something I recently learned might help....you gotta figure out what type of "new" stress is in your life right now making you feel you want to binge because you know you aren't hungry.... it's really hard but worth a try. Take care :)
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Oh, yeah, I would say my body thinks it needs to binge in order to feel full. Nothing less than full seems to satisfy. It sucks. I went to bed in the end, feeling grumpy and seriously frustrated at the madness of it all.
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Good job for just going to bed though, thats a good step! I know it sucks to be unfullfilled and frustrated, but hey, its better than feeling like you've "failed', right? Something my therapist and I are working on is mindful binging...if I binge, I'm supposed to just analzye it, with no judgement. No commentes of I'm a failure, or I did the "wrong" thing....maybe thats something you can try?
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i feel the same, i can't feel happy and satiated anymore until my stomach is totally engorged. it's disgusting and so hard to break the habit.
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theatre and I are there already. I'm having a very berry tea with crackers, cheese and cherry tomatoes and she's having a joint with some beer and we're both on really comfy recliners on thick pile carpet. we need some help with the decor if anyone is around??
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