Well I've had Bulimia for like 5 years now. But I stopped for like 9 months because family was makin me feel bad about it and talkin bout me in a bad way so I stopped for a while. But about 5 months ago I slowly but surely begain fallen back into starving myself and throwin up any food I eat. I use to throw up jus at home but now I find myself throwin up in resturants when people try to force me to eat and at gas stations. Anywhere jus as long as I dont have to keep my food down. I try to eat healthy and stuff and I keep food down then. But I dont eat but 500 calories or less a day of healthy food. I have lost 17 pounds in the past 2 weeks. I dont like throwin up but I cant stop doin it. Im so scared of gaining weight. Im more overweight now because OF FAMILY FORCING me to eat the food they eat which is like Mcdonalds and taco bell and shit. So I try to get people around me to eat healthy but they jus keep bringin unhealthy shit around me and try to force me to eat wat they are eatin. I say no and then they start sayin u need to eat and stop starvin yoself. It hurts my feelings when people talk about my eatin problems. I cant gain anymore weight I have to lose at least 35 more pounds before I will be happy wit myself again. Before when I was too thin I thought I was still huge but now that I look back at pics I see I was too thin. But people try to bust me out in front of people sayin why u takin laxatives and why u throw up yo food? Its bogus and its bringin on a deep depression. I dont even wanna be around my own family. I feel like an outcast and no one else in my generation has an eatin disorder. Some of them over eat a lot but they dont see that as a eatin disorder. They need to get they're own shit together before judgin me. Well Im so depressed about this because jus a hour ago I was called out by a friend in front of people about me throwin up. I denied it but she was like yes u did u so obvious. Well if its obvious why try to point it out and heart my feelings. Im tryin to stop this eatin disorder but I cant its so hard and they dont understand they think its stupid and I do it jus to be doin it. Someone please try and help me out. U can message me too. Thanx a lot..
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