my dad has just recently asked me if i starve myself to lose weight because i have lost a lot of weight in quite a short amount of time. he said "you dont want to get anorexia or anything stupid" like that makes me feel any better. my mum knows but is in denial. i cant talk to them because they will just get angry at me and make things worse. i hate having to lie and hide. i have denied everything but know i feel like i am being watched whenever i see them, and i hate it. it makes me want to starve and restrict more, because i feel so guilty that i am not the perfect daughter. i wish i could confide in them but i know it will just make me worse cause they will try and stop me doing what i am doing when only i have the power to do that. i dont know what to do. any advice would be great.
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