I feel bad posting this because I think I've been posting too much and a lot of other people are struggling right now too... but I don't know what to do. I just can't seem to stop b/ping. I promise myself that I won't, and then I always break that promise. I'm home alone right now, my dad is teaching and my mom is in England, and I just got really carried away and went on a massive binge and purge and the disgusting thing is, my toilet is clogged up and it won't flush. So there's all this vomit just sitting there and I'm afraid that if I try to flush it again it will just overflow (my toilet does that sometimes). Sorry I know that's disgusting but I'm panicking because I don't want my dad to know what I did. I'm such a bad person. I don't really want to die, but I feel like it might be my only option. I feel so shaky and dizzy and weak. Anyway, I'm sorry for posting this, I really hope that no one gets mad at me. Love you guys!
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