I am trying so hard not to purge. I generally fall on the anorexic side and try to eat very few calories, but when I go overboard, I get so mad at myself for not being disciplined enough to control my eating, that I make myself throw it up. It's an off and on thing....not every day. But, since I've finally admitted my problem, It's been so hard. I'm trying to keep my calories under 1000 except on days I run and I try to eat very little at night. It's so mentally draining and consuming....I don't know how to break free from these thoughts. I have lost 8 pounds in the past few weeks and the thought of gaining them back by eating more scares me to death. I don't know what to do.
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