Well for the past few days, I have only eaten one meal a day. And when my stomach growls I know I need to eat, but I don't want to, so I haven't. My therapist is still giving me those worksheets. I'm going back to my eating disordered habits. Skipping meals, was one thing I did. And I'm doing it again...ugh. I haven't thrown up in a while, and I'm proud of myself for that. It's just, when somebody tells me I'm beautiful and not fat, I still tell them they're lying to me. I discount the positives...and still don't believe in myself. I am not sure if I am losing weight or not, hopefully I am. I don't have a scale so I don't weigh myself, but I would like to know if I HAVE lost any weight, or if I have GAINED any weight. Even if I did gain weight, I will not freak out. It just means, I need to eat healthier, and exercise more! Anyways, I'm just not sure what to do...
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