I am on the brink of doing something really serious. But the crisis team wont listen (see journal) and hospitalize me for my own safety. Instead they are discharging me tomorrow, so they can stick to the "Plan". Basically less effort. And of course money. Apparently according to my inside source there are major budget cuts that mean they cannot and will not hospitalize people, regardless of illness. I hope thats true. I'd like to think its money rather than people's blind ignorance of how desperately, dangerously suicidal I am. My arm is in shreds, and so is my mind. I wont last much longer.
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