I am new to this list, though I have been a bulimic for the past 20 years. I am also an alcoholic so I battle two demons on a daily basis. I am having more luck with the alcohol than I am with the eating. My eating is simply out of control right now. I hope to find some kind of support here at this site. No one knows what it is like that doesn't do it. My AA friends try, but they just don't understand why I don't just "stop" or why I can't stop. Trust me, I want to yet I also love to eat. I love the feeling when I am eating, though I get quite disgusted when I am done. It is like I hurry up to eat so I can get done with the disgusing act, yet I love to eat. It is lunchtime now and I'm fighting eating. Please tell me there is help out there for me - that I will one day not even think of doing this.
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