
Eating Disorders Support Group
Eating disorders are marked by an obsessive need to control the intake and/or purging of food. This community is dedicated to those struggling on the road to recovery. Join to discuss your experience with others and find support. Get advice, ask questions, and meet others who are going through similar struggles.

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i thought I had become bulimic because i felt i was fat. i nowrelise that although this may have cntributed to it, i now realise that feeling i was in a way depressed, i felt worthless and empty, i think i thought i was helping myself and taking control but now i realise that it has made these feelings worse. i do feel better after making myself sick but this doesnt last long and i go back to feeling guilty sad and alone. but the feeling after eating and not making myself sick is worse... i then feel worthless and disappointed in myself and i cant let it rest untill i 'make up' for this slip up. the thing that is reli worrying me is that its slowly got worse ... and i no longer feel the need to lose anymoe weight ... however i cant stop doing it! i have told nobody about this even thought my close familly and friends have their suspisions, i hate having to hide it and i feel reli awful that they are worried about me. each time i eat i think to myself that its ok, i dont want to lose anymore weight then another voice will make me feel bad and tell me that if i stop i will go back to my old eating habits and gain weight. i know i was unhappy before and i am unhappy now so in my head i may aswell be thin and unhappy then fat and unhappy. i tell myself that i am a 'healthy bulimic' even though i know there is no such thing ... i know that i am eating enough in a day to not seriously put myself in danger but i also know that if i carry on i could get worse ...
how can i stop this constant conflict in my head!? its driving me crazy!
thanks
how can i stop this constant conflict in my head!? its driving me crazy!
thanks

deleted_user
you are taking a great step by letting this out! that's wonderful that you are aware of conflicting thoughts and reasons behind the cause of the disorder...the next step is the good old therapy routine....group meetings, one-on-one, or maybe journaling your feelings, talking on here, trying to find distractions, seeing a nutritionist..there are so many choices. you can do this..it will take time.

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It's the reason isn't it! You are a thinker, your a msart girl very smart. you have to put that intelligence to something that is going to help you instead of hinder you. I know how you feel i do look at my stats i am there with you. If you want to talk add me because i am sorry and i do care ok?? love Vanessa

deleted_user
You need to get help now. The sooner the better your chances of recovery. Tell your family. They already worry about you, so let them help you to find a doctor and therapist and maybe a support group. Like you said there is no healthy bulimic, so take some action now. Good luck, hon.

deleted_user
You have made a very positive step in joing this community, the next step is to seek professional help via your GP. All anorexics have great intelligence, which society has failed to nurture, as a result you have not developed some coping skills, therapy will help with this but its not a quick fix its day at a time. You will find help and support here but professional help too.
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