Hey Beautiful people, you may be in shock considering yesterdays entry, but wanted to share with you am FEELING FAB!!! I think its a mix of things...Talking to you guys and not feeling so alone, speaking with my beautiful little nieces and thinking WTF am I doing, speaking with my director who seems to have become my gardian angel.. WOW I know am going to have bad days to follow but today I feel stronger and that I am ready to take it on and think your comment that said to be thankful for the bad day was fab advise. Yesterday I swigged Vodka out of the bottle before work preparing for a really bad day and it turned into my best, WASNT SICK!!!!(first time in about 5yrs)ATE REALLY HEALTHY & WENT FOR A WALK (First Exercise since can remember)That walk made me feel soooo good I couldnt wipe the smile off my face, went home had a salad and went to bed!! NO ALCHOLE EITHER!!! Gosh I feel good, was also the best sleep have had forever and although my mind was talking it somehow felt a little clearer, really wanted to share it with you all!!XX