Well I have recently learned the food is now my drug of choice. I wake up in the morning, and I start thinking about wooo what can I eat?? What sounds good?? Its never "lets have a healthy smoothie" its what donut shop sounds better today. Food consumes my whole day. Just today in my binge eating fix I have consumed 2380 calories in just today from 7:00am to 2:00 pm and that doesn't include my lunch or my "good Breakfast" that is just the amount I have consumed since I have been here at work. I am gaining weight like you wouldn't believe, but I can't seem to stop. I know what I need to do to loose the weight but the cravings, the wants, the desires for this high from the bad foods, I can't seem to get control of, and I need help, advise or just a swift kick in the butt. I am killing myself here, and I dont know how to regain control of my life. Its really hard to explain to anyone that hasn't had an addiction before and i haven't until now, but most people say well just stop --- Well its like the craving is almost like that of a gun pointed at yourside telling you to move and dont make a sound. Its not possible to just stop!!!! Any pointers here ----- I am out of control!!!
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