I had a miscarriage back in 08 because I couldn't give up my eating disorder, but 4 months later I got pregnant agian. I was scared at first because I was still throwing up and what not and was also put on bed rest because I almost lost her. I knew I had to stop so I did.My husband was so proud of me. I had a little girl on Mach 23.2009 and weighted 180!!!!!So I started my eating disorder again.Right now I'm 125 but I still don't like myself. I think that My husband is kind of getting the clue that I'm back on my eating disorder he tells me everyday that Im too skinny and need to gain weight.IT IS NOT THAT EASY. He really doesn't know because I keep it a secret, he told me that if he ever found out that I was doing this again he would leave me and take the baby.He doesn't know how hard it is for me.But I don't want my daughter to grow up with an eating disorder too let alone with out a mom I want help because I know I need it but I don't know what to do. Specialized eating disorder places don't except governmental insurance and thats all I have. So what do I do now????
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