i was just writing somebody a message when i truly came to this realization: my body is quite literally the most brilliant thing on this face of this earth.. in fact, everybody's body is genuis. think about what we put our bodies through on a daily basis.. and im not just talking about eating disorder issues, because ED issues are not all that we deal with.. (as hard as it is to remember, we have to start thinking that our eating disorders are not our identitys.) lack of sleep, poor nutrition (again, this applies to EVERYBODY), smoking, drinking.. there are so many things that we do to destory our bodies, yet it still fights.

our bodies love us so much it fights when we beat them down.. our minds love us so much that they allow us to wake every morning, even though it knows all that we are going to do is attack it and attempt to bring it down. and what about the jobs it must perform every single day? your heart beats without a single thought.. it just does what its suppose to do. as well as your kidneys, liver, stomach, intestines, reproductive organs... everything just does what its suppose to do, even when we treat it like dirt between our feet. it tells you when you are hungry because it needs fuel to keep us, SOMEBODY WHO SHOULD BE ITS MORTAL ENEMY, alive. i figure that as long as i am in a relationship with ED then i dont at all deserve my body. it could seriously do so much better.

but i am truly starting to appreciate myself.. i look at every tiny detail; my hair, my fingernails, the zits on my chin.. and i appreciate them because that means my body is working the way it should be. i read what everybody is saying about their own bodies, and i wish that i could just force this into their minds.. how beautiful every body is.