i hate myself for this behavior. its disgusting to me. i'm not even hungry at all, yet i get up out of bed at 3 in the morning and just start in. i was thinking about this earlier, and i realized, i have been doing this for most of my life. the only time i was at a normal weight was for a few yrs in high school. my mom was diabetic and she served my plate to me, with everything measured out. i have the knowledge about foods, weighing, measuring, portion control. i just don't do it anymore. God, i feel like i need my mother here to serve my plate to me and say "this is what you are allotted to eat for dinner". i have no control anymore. somewhere along my life's journey, i have stopped caring and just eat with abandon. i am as heavy now as i was at 9 months pregnant. i just feel sick.
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