I've had an eating disorder for about a year now. I have a combinition of bulimia and anorexia. I either don't eat at all. Or I eat as little as possible. But, when I feel like I've eaten to much, I purge. The thing is that, when I purge, it doesn't work. It's like..........I have no 'gag reflects". It just really frustrates me. Anyways, over the past few weeks it's been getting alot worse because of stress and stuff. I feel like I haven't eaten in days, even though I just ate a small bowl of soup. I feel really dizzy and my head aches like hell. I'm exhausted. Even though I slept like.........7 or 8 hours last night. I have insomnia. So, if I don't take a "knock me out" pill, I don't sleep at all. And my joints are really bothering me. Like, the back of my legs are so tight I cannot even walk up or down the stairs. I have gym class tomorrow, and if my legs are still like this, there's no way I'm going. Which really bothers me because if I run 3 laps, (around two huge football fields)then I can lose alittle weight. But if I don't, then it doesn't help. But, that's besides the point. My point is that I feel like no matter how hard I try, I cannot control how much I eat. I mean, everyone says "OMG!!! Your not fat!!! Your thin!!!". I AM NOT THIN!!!! I weigh 145 pounds!!! I just look thin because I'm tall. I just.............feel out of control with everything..............
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