is there something in the past that's contributing to your ED? there's a lot of different types of therapy and not all of them focuses on the past. if you don't feel comfortable talking about your past, maybe ask for your therapist to take a different approach until you feel you can handle it.

I was sexually abused by my father at the age of 5 to 12 years of age, and touched by my step fathers brother at the age of 14. I just afraid that I will too overwelmed and not beable to stay in control..

ive had a bad past, lots of illnesses and family members dying or getting really sick and also i was bullied badly i wouldnt want to look back either but maybe it will help, give it a chance, it might help, good luck and anytime u want to talk im here

I actually think this is the best thing to do for any addiction, my older sister is a drug addict and has been in and out of therapy for 17 yrs. I talk to her all the time b/c she has been working on herself way longer than me, and had been through a hell of alot more. But it all stems from our child hood, at first it is very hard, when I started going to therapy things were brought out that I did not even know were bothering me. Thing is I think no matter how minimal or tragic, our ED are emotional and come from childhood and what we learned growing up. I think it's the only way to heal to look into the past and re-learn how to handle things, and figure out why and what makes us deal with things through food and body image.

I worked through my past when I started therapy. It still comes back to haunt me sometimes but I can handle it way better. So with your abuse I think it is almost a must to deal with it. And if you can't see you therapist more than once a week, write your thoughts in a journal and read them to her the following appointment. That's what held me over. You are right it is hard to let feelings happen, but you are letting them happen right now through your eating disorder and that can very easily kill you. I hope you have the courage and strength to talk about your feelings and heel your body in the process.

Thanks Everyone for your replys. I am going to give it a try and use my journal thanks for the advice.

Thanks Again.

usually (as far as i gather) therapy brings up old supressed thoughts that may be big part of your ED. the theory is that once you bring them to the surface and deal with them, you can let go and your unconcious won't be in such turmoil.
there fore a happier you.
so it will be hard to start!
very hard,
but stick with it!!!! and it will revel a better, happier person in the end.

i really hope you do ok.
chat to us all, if you need to.
we can be your mini in between sessions.

xx

Remember that your therapist is there to help- not harm- you, and if some of your ED stems from the abuse, she an help you resolve your anger and fear.

I, too, was an abused child, and used my ED as punishment for what they did. With my therapists help (after opening up), I was able to break down these thoughts and seeing my parents isn't so difficult anymore