Hey everyone my name is angi and for the past five years I have been tormented by a severe struggle with bulimia. I am literally at my wits end; I want so much to get better and get past this ed, but the task just seems impossible. Over the past year my desire to heal has been greater than ever but the path to getting there seems insurmountable. I don't have insurance so the traditional methods that every doctor and therapist I've consulted with have suggested are way out of reach for me. While I have had small victories in my struggle, everyday I just feel a little more worn down and discouraged. I feel like no matter how hard I try I'm never going to get past this. Almost everyday I'm plagued with fear and shame. I fear that I'm going to drop dead from my e.d., and I feel ashamed because I've let my life fall victim to a disorder that to most people in my life seems ridiculous and something that can be easily overcome if I really wanted to get better. They don't understand that all I want is to be healthy and normal but its sooo hard. I just need some support, advice, and encouragement from people who understand what it's like to live with an eating disorder and how difficult it really is to be free from its grips.
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