Ive been doing really well lately with ED until the last couple of weeks. Im moving and going back to school Aug 1st and im really excited about it. Before 2weeks ago I probably had not b/p for a couple of months. Maybe Ive just been nervous about basically starting over in the world. Im not sure. Im ready to move from this place(nothing good has really come out of it) but i think it may be my crutch or is ED? Anyways, last night I began reading "life without ed" bc Im sick of this. I read the first part and had to stop. It did with asking things like, "why cant I just eat like normal people?" Not care so much about what goes in. The first chapter/sections asks you to write your delcaration of independence from ED. I copied what she wrote and then when it got to the evidence of how ED was abusing/damaging me and what hes done to my life I couldnt write anything down. Ive been told all my life to take responsiblity for my own actions. When i tried to go to school and live on my own the first time i failed miserably. But I have to take responsiblity for my actions and not blame them on ED. How can finish this book if I can even declare my independence? Does anyone else feel like this?
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