So I've relapsed for the second time since I've got out of the hospital. I feel sooooo terrible. I want to restrict like I used to. And I'm afraid I'll start using bulimic behaviors instead of anorexic ones. I loved using anorexic behaviors... so why did I purge? Why does it make me feel *good* to purge? Throughout my restricting, I'd forgotten how good it feels to purge... that high feeling after everything is gone. I am scared to be diagnosed bulimic... I miss anorexia.
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