Hang in, things will get better. Can you just eat a few bites of healthy stuff to lessen guilt?

do you have any safe foods which you'd be comfortable with eating? start there just to get back into the swing of eating again, then slowly incorporate other foods back into your diet.

May be try having a few bites and then having a break.Let your body get used to it. Then when you feel ok take a little more. Let your body get used to the goodness you are putting in to it. And embrass how good you feel from taking it in.

First, look at your name. We all believe in you, and hope that you can get through this period. now you ahve to believe in yourself.
Start with thinking about food, not as something YOU need, but something HUMANS need. what foods do humans need, they need carbs for energy and glucose production, to feed the brain. Humans need protein for muscle strength and a source of amino acids, if not, they will start digesting their own muscles. they need fat as a source of lipids, to protect their organs, as a source of fuel. They need vitamins...
Start breaking down things you think you MIGHT eat.. This is a potato. it has carbohydrates, it has vitamins in it... it will help me with X, X, and X... then see if it is easer to use it as a tool for your body, instead of just "eating" it.

hey girl don't lose faith. it sounds like you are going through a pretty rough patch but i think you can pull yourself out of it - the fact that you want it to end is already a positive sign. stay strong, and don't lose faith in yourself.

I have been the same way recently. Everytime I go to eat a "real" meal, I feel like I have failed and instantly gained weight. Because I restrict so much, my motabolism sucks,so everything I eat stays, as my body is always in starvation mode...which makes me feel so much worse eating. I feel bad because I want to be thin more than I want help...it makes me sad.