So upset with myself, been having a good couple of days...tried maintaining myself through the battle of an over-populated-with-food bbq party and ended up failing! I ate too much and now i regret it...but there was just so much good food there, and it was so social, and everyone else was eating it too...until after the fact i realize i was eating a lot more then anyone else was and i didnt think anyone else noticedd..or maybe they did! The point is im scared im gonna fall back into this cycle again! WHEN IS IT GONNA END FOR ME!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! Why does food have to be so mean to me!?
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