I feel like I have tried everything to curb my urges to binge. I know my triggers, I try waiting it out, I go to the gym, listen to music, write in a journal, take a nap, everything. It feels like nothing will stick, and I'm exhausted. Exhausted from thinking about food all hours of the day, planning out my b/p sessions. I'm exhausted from distracting myself so I don't b/p. I'm exhausted from beating myself up when I actually do b/p after trying so hard not to. It's an uphill battle that seems to never end. I want to get better SO BAD, I'm just a little discouraged today, I just want it all to go away. :(
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