I have gone 2 days if I make it through today it will be my third day without throwing up, thats a long time for me. I am trying so hard to recover. I am so tired of disappointing people and people thinking that I don't want to get better when I do. Yeah last week I cut my arm and really screwed it up, and I will never do that again. I am such a bad person. But I am finding it so hard not to throw up I am soo scared to gain weight and I am so scared that I will if I don't throw up I exercise all the time Im on the track team and soccer is about to start again. But I have such a huge fear of gaining weight, and I don't think people understand that. So I was wondering how do you get over that fear?
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